Years of waiting.
Good evening followers! Hey ***, this is for you.
Hey you. When will you reply my post? I've been waiting like years. Oh my gosh, angel, you're scarier than ever. Okay stop. I missed you, dude. I know it sounded really retarded when a retard person typed like that but still I confess k? I'm not lying and I'm not hiding something from you. Maybe you don't know that I'm talking about you.
You're always on my mind, and I couldn't help it. People who saw this post, if you love this, thanks! Well if you don't, press Ctrl + w at the same time. You got your own way now.
Yes, mostly my besties know I liked you. You know why I liked or had a big crush on you? Not only that you look like Kim Hyun Joong, but you got a kind-heart.
You're not ego like the other cute boys,
you're not a maniac who cares you got a lot of lady friends,
you're limited edition and lots lots lots.
I'm out of words but yes, you are one in a million for me ♥
Awe, I wish I could be the one for you and your last one. And I wish you could be the one for me and forever my last one. Hmm, all I do is keep calm and be patient. Hihi :3 I will always wait for you. I know you'll be mine one day. Amen.
Okay goodnight me followers. School tomorrow. Be sure to wake up early! Hihi :)
God Bless, xo,Angel(;
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Goodnight little angels :)
Shalom once again brothers and sisters in Christ.
It's 1.29 in the morning. Uh about that tittle huh? Well it's nothing. Just something I like to say to every kids I know when they are asleep. It sounded really cute right? I know. Love saying those 3 words, Goodnight little angels. It's like, God blessed them and the angels from heaven come and protect them.
It's a wonderful thing right?
Okay. I'm listenin' to Jason Derulo's song 'Don't wanna go Home' now at Hitz. I'm super bored so, music it is. Music cure my boredom. Yea really. Oh yea, I miss CDM :( I saw something hurtful at his profile just now. Someone posted "♥ for you.." at his wall. Gee why am I jealous about this? I'm not his girl. Duh, fail angel fail.
He is just, TOO CUTE! Kim Hyun Joong okay? He is. Jenguk jenguk la gambar Kim Hyun Joong, gitu la muka dia. Omg like seriously, CDM! Tegur tegur la bah. Satu kali ja tau kau tegur saya. Pasal fb sa cari pasal then tiada lagi kau layan saya. Noooooooo. Why? Ergh :/
This is one of my fav picture of him:
Handsome right? He is! Compare to Kim Hyun Joong, you'll find the answer. He is studying at Gunsanad 1. A form 3 student. Psst, am a stalker. A great stalker. Ha, I am awesome! lol ;D Okay CDM you're cute. Cuteness overload, omoooooo~ -.-
Okay, if you are one of his friend, please don't tell him about this. If I know that you have told him, I'll unfollow you. Nah seriously I'm joking I'm not gonna unfollow you guys. It was just a joke. tehee;3 But please no aye? Pretty please, a big NO. *sigh* If only he know that I like him and he likes me too. Er haters, you mad? Keep on mad 'cause I don't even care what you think, troll. You're just jealous aren't you? Hmm, good to know.
Recently, I've been listening to 1D's song 'One Thing'. Wow it is awesome. More awesome is the acoustic version. Click here to listen the original version and the here for the acoustic version. Enjoy hearing it peeps! Both version sounded really awesome. I guarantee :)
Okay it's almost 2. I'm off! Night bloggerians.
xo,Angel(;
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Disappointment.
Yes, I will.
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My fault for being so desperate.
Hey, it's 3 somethin' in the morning and I still haven't sleep yet. Great -.-
Let me speak in Malay so this subject can be understood clearly.
Hi abang! heh. Harap kau nampak ne post saya. Ya, saya pun ada cakap tentang kamu dua. Mau tau ka bang? Saya cakap gitu sebab saya jeles, bodoh kan? Ya sa tau, memang immature betul saya ne. Eh antah la, tapi memang serious saya jeles sebab sejak kebelakangan ne abang tidak layan saya. Setahu saya abang layan dia saja. Saya okay saja sebab setahu adik abang memang suka dia and dia memang suka abang. Saya tidak tau pula yang abang tidak dapat terima cinta dia. Abang, saya tau saya ne memang tidak sempurna, semua manusia pun sama. Jadi jangan cakap yang abang tidak berhak lahir di dunia ini. Tuhan sudah pilih abang untuk lahir di dunia ne kay? Abang, saya tidak sangka yang abang bilang sama saya, "I can't let you go." Abang, saya nangis setengah mati tau. Balik-balik saya ingat itu ayat, then saya ingat abang. Saya rindu keadaan dulu.
Kita text and call 24/7. Yang best time calling. Abang selalu buat lawak sama saya. Abang satu orang yang kasih ceria adik time sedih, kasih ketawa adik. Macam abang ne salah satu best friend saya sudah, tulah saya pun suka abang. Eh bodoh bodoh. Haha. 1 tahun lebih oi abang, saya pun tidak tau kenapa saya boleh suka abang begitu lama. Ini fakta ah bang, kau baik, kau caring sama saya, kau sayang saya, kau lawak, kau handsome, kau cute, kau athlete, kau tidak pernah stop call and text saya, kau punya rambut AWESOME, kau memang seorang lelaki yang hebat, kau sangat alim, kau penyabar, well kadang-kadang bikin panas juga. haha, childish and banyaklah! Ah abang masih ingat yang 14 things tu? Sekarang 30 lebih sudah. Heh upgrade sudah bah abangku, abang ja tidak ambil kisah. Then tidak lagi tulis pasal fact abang tu sebab abang tidak layan saya tiba-tiba. Okay, secara tiba-tiba. Saya pun lupa kenapa abang tidak layan saya.
Abang, kau sweet bah. Hahah astaga lucuu;3 Kalau time kita calling, okay dua kali sudah adik cakap ne. lol. Anu, one time yang kita calling, abang main Price Tag kan? Weeeeeee adik suka ne. Siuk pula suara c abang ne kan? Tidak tau pula. Hoho. Terus tiada orang di rumah, abang kasih kawan adik, abang kasih tidur adik lagi. Sampai adik mengantuk baru abang letak. Hey readers, aren't my brother is a sweet person? Well he is.
Well here's the confession, after all this hiding thingy, FY is Fadley. Anuu, budak sfx tu yang form 3. Heehoo(; Inilah dia, selama ini saya sembunyi dan memberi initial name kepadanya. Ngokngok;D Hahaha. Dia la secret admirer saya(lol-.-), dia la abang angkat saya yang paling baik di dunia and dia la orang yang sweet saya pernah jumpa. So girls, kalau kamu kenal dia, baguslah. Dia memang baik okay? Dari dulu lagi. hee.
Abang, i love you okay? Jaga diri baik-baik. Walaupun tadi saya sudah kasih sakit hati abang, saya tetap sayang sama kau bang. Abang, I forgive you all the time even though saya sakit hati or abang ada buat salah sama saya. Pasal text message abang tadi tu, jangan cakap bukan-bukan ah bang. Adik kau sini sayang kau sangat-sangat, ketat-ketat lagi tau. Lain feeling adik kau kalau kau tidak text dia. 1 bulan masih lagi saya tahan, sampai abang text saya. Abang, I'll take care of myself when I'm out today with Nadine and my other friends.
And yeah, I'll pray for you and forgive you every time. I love you bro, I just can't stop thinking about you. I know it sounds like euwing and what other stuff but I'm sorry.
p/s: Nayang, you understand me right? If you saw this, saya tidak dapat tahan sudah. Saya mau luahkan juga. Saya pun sudah luahkan sama kau. hee, i love you Nayaaaaaaaaaaaaaaangg♥ Sayang kakak ipar sa. sehh, haha;D
Okay, I'm going to sleep now. I'm sleepy.
Happy birthday Nadine Drew-Ann Bainon! I love you cousin! Meet you at 11(;♥
Mornight(; -style c Nayang. lol xD
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You're nothing but a blithering idiot.
Shalom. Happy Blessed Sunday everyone :)
Sunday, is a holy day, and I shouldn't cursing people but I can't stand it. But you, YOU! You're the one who talking back with a bag full of shit. Stop talking nonsense at my bro's back you ass.
Improper girl, you should be inside the trash right now.
Did God tell you to do that? No!
Did Satan tell you to do that? Yes!
Well go to hell now bitch!
Wow. I cursed too much. Fuck that girl. I hope one day, karma strikes you back for that, and yeah, what I'm saying now is a prayer. Amen.
Now, all I have to think is the moment of truth. It's tonight. Damn. It's 5:17 p.m and I haven't make a decision yet. What am I going to say to him? Oh man. This is tough.
REAL TOUGH.
Am I going to say: Yes!
Or am I going to say: No!
I don't even know which one I'm going to say to him tonight.
Ah, darn it!
I think I'm going to say: Yes:)
You know why?..
'Cause I don't want to loose him anymore like on September 2. I made a big mistake in my entire epic life of intensity. He's the one for me and no one will dispute about me and him. I love him and I miss him. After I broke up with him I never saw him at Church again.
October came and everything looks wonderful. But I still remember him in my mind, full filled, even though I like somebody else like FY, I still love and miss him truly eff much.
Then on October 24, suddenly I remember him. I was like: What the hell am I thinking about him? Ugh, this is suck! Oh lord I miss him so much!
That's when I started calling his foster brother, Febian. We talked about him and told Febian that I miss him so much. He told me that it was all my fault 'cause I'm the one who dumped him. Wow, sucks to be me. I know right? Huh. But he said he'll helped me. So I let him helped me to get together with him back.
Well, it's not that easy by the way.
I've gone too many problems after that. Problems here problems there problems that. Stress man. I almost die of stress. Seriously, you don't how I survive with my stress life that time.
Thank God 'cause it's already over. Hallelujah.
And also Febian. tehee;3
Now we're texting. Text text text and text. Yeah, I love him for sure and I will never let him go no matter what happens.
Tonight is the night! I'm going to say Yes for him and also Princess Diary II!
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To you, everything's funny.
02:13 p.m
Hi! I love you too FY ♥ hoho.
Okay. He told me that he'll buy me big apple if I go to KK this holiday. Amen-amen! I want big apple superrrrrrrr much! Oh yeah and I miss drinking starbucks. Ah darn. tapun-tapun.
Today's event? Rosary prayer. Families come and pray together with us. Wooooooo~ Let this month of rosary be perfect and the other Catholics will do the same.
Lord, hear my prayers. Amen :)
00:04 a.m
Haven't sleep yet. The 5 boys are playing DOTA. They shouted like monkeys. omg. I don't know what the hell am I going to do now. My tummy's rumbling and I want to eaaaaaaaaaaaat! I'm starving. Then I called my foster sister Evlin to accompany me to go to the kitchen.
She's starving too. Well.
Mari makaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan!
After finish eating, rest for awhile. We watched the boys playing dota. Listened to their screams of madness because one of em' gotten FIRST BLOOD and DOUBLE KILL.
Hahaha. wow. Can't believe that I know that two words.
I don't play this "dota" game.
But.........
I play cs and gta. Oh yeah.
My ultimate favorite games ever! But it's been format from the cp, and it's all gone. After I knew it was been format, wow. My heart was broken.
:/
*Violin is playing*
10:17 a.m
Hey! This was been drafted last night. I fell asleep. lol. Now what am I doing? Nothing. Nothing at all except for blogging and watching tele : Jungle Book 2:) Haha.
Mom is the one who open the channel. She loves Jungle Book 'cause she said the cartoon is funny.
I just watched the advertisement in Disney Channel. Tomorrow plays the old movie:
Princess Diary II : The Royal Engagement
Yeay! Finally! Miss that movie so much♥
Nella texted me. She would try to go to that new food bar shop beside the servay. Yes I would like to go to that food bar shop. It looks like fun and delicious. *Well maybe. duh.*
Kay. I'm off. Bye.
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Greatest day ever. 08102011♥
Hey guys!
Omg this is the greatest day of my life. *Not entirely.*
So yeah, today nadine, nella and i went to library for revision 'cause final examination are getting near. Lucky us still got time to revise. Haha.
Inside, we started talking. *Yeah we're maniacs. Lots of mouth.* Then this security woman shh-d us. Oh okay. So we started our revision while earphone is on! That's the way, uh huh uh huh, I like it, uh huh uh huh. lol. Nella's doing her geography folio while nadine and meh' were studying history. Study and study for an hour, nadine's complaining. She wanted to buy candies.
Okay okay skip it off I can't wait to tell what's going to happen next.
After all the happening, I studied alone while both of them chatting. Suddenly they called me, and I was like "apaa?". Nadine said "tngu blkng kau buduu!" Nella added "c FY! *His code name. lmfao.* So I turned around, awee! It's him! But that time he was looking in front. I can't see his face clearly. Darn it. Hmm, oh well. He doesn't care about me at all.
Nadine: Teii, drg p ambi bag tu.
Me: Ya ka? mana?
Nadine: Tuu. HAHAH!
Me: Tda nmpk ba.
Nella: Ada tu. Kau tnggu ja.
*They out from lockers section*
Me: Uii wtf. *turn back to book*
The N's: HAHAH!
Me: Sial kamu!
Nadine: Babi kau tei. HAHA!
Nella: Naa drg jalan sdh tu.
Me: *Turns back* mana?
Nadine: Naa mencari juga.
Me: Misti la ba sot. aiyaa drg jalan sdh. haih. berla. :(
The N's: Ololooooo~
Me: Diam kamu! *bumped my head on the table*
Then he texted me: "Hey!"
Woah, I don't have any credit man. So I rq-d him and other friend but it's no use. I asked nadine but she's only left with 60 cents and nella have to use her 1 ringgit to call her mom. Ahh. Hell. Nella and nadine were out to canteen. Left me alone. Like a dush. Oh I'm alone in a cold big room surrounded by pmr, spm and stpm's students. Study smart, don't blast your brain. Pffft I don't know what I'm sayin' right now.
I put my phone inside my stationary case. 5 minutes later, I checked it and got 1 text message and 1 missed call. Text from my cousin Gwen and missed call from 'FY'. Huh? Called me huh? Hmm, great. *Pretending that I didn't care that time*
He called me again, but this time I answered.
*Answered*
Me:Hello?
FY: He....*Tuuuuuuut* - No line connection sound.
Oh damn it. -,- I ain't satisfied with it. It's been 30 minutes since The N's disappear. We are this two mouseketeer?
*5 minutes later....*
They were back from unknown world. It's 2 o'clock and we're going home. At home, FY texted me: "Hey?" Oh, mencari kau gaman. Hahaha. Rq-d my bro's girlfriend and then I text him. Text and text. Laugh and laugh. Hmm, miss this moment with him. Thank you God for hearing my prayers. Amen :)
Went to church just now. After church we went to Pizza Hut for take away. While waiting, my bro was talking with the staffs at there. I heard they said beside me is Intan Ladyana. And I was like: "Betul ba?" The staff said: "Tu, tingu la." Turned around and it was Intan Ladyana! Cool. Lucky me. Pfffft tataik -,-" itu pun mau bangga. Eee c bodoh.
Intan is gorgeous! Lovin' her style, the figure! Ergh man with her friend which she's wearin' her red vans shoes. Oh gosh! Niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! It's vans man! Wowowowowowowow cool. They're shooting for their (Shaheizy Sam, Intan Ladyana, Yana Samsudin) new movie "Bini-biniku Gangster". But seriously, walaupun kamu artis, pizza kami lagi awal siap daripada kamu. Ohooooo~ Noobhan toii!
After that countinue texting with him, until now. But he told me to go to sleep. Hee. So yea, I should go.
Best day ever(;
Bye, Night♥
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Childhood memories.
Good afternoon my fellow bloggerians, and Hello there! *British accent on*
Hot day aye? Hm, yep. Very. But, it's like Mr.Sun didn't appeared already. I wonder where he is. Taking a shower? Maybe. Haha. Nonsense talking. Yeah I met Joel at church just now, he said to me, "Hey fatty :D" I was like: Go die youu! Hahah.
Oh yeah, I missed my childhood memories! SERIOUSLY DUDE. I do missed those wonderful time of my life especially when it's Christmas time at kampung! xD Superbly Fun! Aw! I missed it so much-muchie! Hey Mr.Sun is back! *tuuuuuuuut* Out of topic! LOOOOOOL. Continue! Okay. Hm, I love it when my parents and us siblings still lived in Tambunan 9 years ago and after that we moved to Keningau. So sad. I remember when I joined my aunt to go to the paddy field (us Idang family's paddy field). I helped her to beat the paddy and dry the paddy in the sun. Aw good times.
Oh oh and and that time I remember aunt and I went to our relatives pond fish that is full of mud. HOLY COCONUT HEAD I felt icky a bit but seriously, it was fun actually. Gahaha! Oh yeah. So we're in the pond and I felt wow. Suddenly a fish suck my toe nail, I screamed like fvck. My relatives and aunt laughed at me. *I'm not shy at all 'cause I'm still a kid. Kid's just wanna have fun right?* Later on, another fish slapped my face with his vicious tail. I was shocked and I don't want to in inside the pond anymore.
*Sigh* See that picture of a man up there? That's what I want now. I miss those colourful days back then. I always with my cousins went to the river. We bathe, play, even picnic! Ah, those sweet times. But it's already past. Turns out to be just memories.
I missed my family. Just like I posted yesterday, I hope this December we'll back! Amen, Hallelujah! (:
Bye peeps!
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It's a Beautiful Night.
I'd promise at 10 pm, turns out to be 11:22 pm. LOL sorry guys. Hee.
Great night aye everbody? 'Cause it's a beautiful night, we're looking for somethin' dumb to do. Who cares babeh, I think I wanna marry you :) - Bruno Mars <3
Yea we did text together but only like, several minutes and the last thing he said to me was: "Sorry my phone is low batt now and I don't know where the heck is the charger is. K, we'll text tomorrow k? Night ***. I **** *** and **** ***." LUL xD Hahaha. NO NO NO. Joking, you guys know what that suppose to be mean. Aiyaa. Ngehehe ;3
Kay, I have to finish my Geography notes first then I sleep. Yehee~
KBYELOVEYOUALLXOXO<3
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Ngehehe ;3
I don't why and how, my love with you become bigger and stronger. And I just know, that you'll be mine forever, and ever and ever. Lasting forever. Amen.
Ugh, I didn't eat anything in one day. My stomach is screaming like hell but I only drink water and milk. That's all. I'm not saying that I'm diet or somethin' else, I just, don't have any mood. I wanna eat so badly but I just can't. And I don't know what's the prob is. *Sigh* :O
What's wrong with me? Oh yea. About just now, we're texting actually until now. He was like: "heyyyy? line kili.." and I was like: "aaaa? npa?" and then he was like: "sot tu line, bakar tu pncwng celcom bsuk." Ohh, sandi oh him xD
Tringggggg~!! *Sound of the bell ringing* *Enters the exam room and knocked the door* "Good afternoon, Sir :)" "Good afternoon. Please sit :D" My conversation with the examiner that afternoon when my turn to be examine. Haha, please enjoy this next conversation.
Sir: "Would you like to start on your pieces first or the scales?" Me: "I would like to start the scales first please, Sir." Sir: "All right then. Before that, you can speak British aye?" Me: "Yes, Sir. I do and I speak in British, really." Sir: "That's nice. You watch Narnia?" Me: "Oh, I do watch that Sir. I like the Movie." Sir: "Great, how about Harry Potter?" Me: "Oh, Sir, I really love that Movie. And I did watch the Deathly Hallows part 1. Hee :)" Sir: "Oh really? Me too! That Movie is really fascinating!" Me: "I know right, Sir." Sir: "*Giggles* :D Okay let us start, shall we?" Me: "Yes, Sir."
LOL all of a sudden the examiner asked me like that. Haha. xD Aren't you shock if a Britain person ask you like that in a surprise way? I know I do 'cause I've been like that today. Lmfao Everyday I'm Shufflin'. Gahaha.
kays,nightpottersmarslovejesusfamilyhimfriendandall <3
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Yes that is me, Hartzlin.
If you wanna know, hear it goes: Gonna tell you there's a part of me to show. If you close I'm gonna let you see, everything. But remember that you ask for it.
I don't know how you can really fell in love with an idiot like me. But seriously, it's cute and yea, I love you ma' dude.
Hey I'm back! Okay, I'm fresh and smell good like daisy. HAHAHA.
There's a lot of things you guys didn't know about me aye? Yea, I suppose I've to tell you guys about random things about me.
I'm weird. I got swag like nigga's. Everyday I'm tumblring. I love JB and CS so much. I love Him. I just want to leave the house right now. My life are kinda really sad right now. Kingsley is my gay-bestfriend. Everyday I'm on DSLR. I'm about to pee now but I don't want to leave this lappy alone. I see sparks when I close my eyes. I eat unicorns and rainbow flakes. My future-in-dream husband is Harry.
I'm weird aren't I? :)
Bye, night.
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Jealous much? Yea :(
I'm so jealous with him. Like, his ex is more important than me. Uhh, I'm so emo. Why? Aish, annoying much. But really, I'm totally jealous of it. They're so, like, so so HAPPY!
Actually today we're gonna meet but, IDK. I text him 2 times and called him 1 time but, he didn't replied and answered at all.
Eh, I'll continue later. Chao señora, señor.
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I snap you. JD ;)
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Hartzlin Vanzvanessa♥
A person who truly loves you is someone who sees the pain in your eyes while everyone else believe in the smile on your face.
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My parents has stated my name Hartzlin Vanzvanessa since I was born. 14 years of age. Asian, Land below the wind. Sm Ken Hwa, Keningau. I'm a wannabe pianist, potterhead, die-hard Liverpool fan, chewing-machine, part-time singer and dancer, twitter addict and a maniac. When I'm bummed, God always there for me. He never leave me behind. I'm going to tell everybody that I love my most awesome God, Jesus Christ, most hilariously epic Idang/Edang family, my besties who are very wild failed yet handsome gorgeous senor senorita and my most joker a.k.a funny ass awesome yet insanely cute and humble bboy boyfriend. Yes, I'm officially taken by Brovell Arbel Brocyleo. I love him and he loves me, fullstop.
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